December 2023

I wrote this in December of 2023. I was diving more deeply into love and how it was hurting me, and everyone around me. I loved love. I still LOVE, love- but at that point in my life it seemed to be destroying me and everyone around me more than it was healing us.

This piece helped me say my truth and helped me to truly reroute my thoughts around love and control. Reading it today- I am so proud of this journey. Love truly builds in my world now.

Sometimes, you just need to allow the truth to surface to allow yourself to start.

DECEMBER 2023

Love holds us back. 

Love ruins us. 

Love keeps us held in our own little prisons that we build around ourselves. 

Fear of hurting others. 

Fear of not being enough. 

Fear of failure. 

Fear of letting them down. 

Fear of them leaving or something happening to them. 

Fear of time misspent. 

Fear of everything. 

Love completely destroys us. 

And then something happens. 

We don’t love anymore.

We say we do, because we always have, but our behaviors are no longer loving. 

Our behaviors are self centered. 

Our behaviors are emotionally motivated. 

Our experiences, our thoughts, our needs, our wants all dictate how we want to receive love. 

A whole hell of a lot of us do not know how to love correctly. 

We know how to fall emotionally in love, and then we know how to control. 

We know how to prepare for the fall. 

We know how to prepare for all the hurt they will bring us. 

All the things they will take from us. 

We go to war silently with the people we love. 

It fills us with resentment and tears us apart. 

That’s not the kind of love that I want to be a part of. 

For a deeper dive check out the convo that was inspired by this post on YouTube: Convos With Bree. (PLAYLIST: Visibility Challenge- Day 51)

Day 1-51 out is out now.