DAY 5

Mantra: “I can do the extraordinary!” 

Damn straight I can! 

Last night I did an incredible meditation by Joe Dispenza on YouTube before I fell asleep. It was all about seeing a golden light around your body and stepping into a quantum leap. I am starting to allow myself to meditate on a deeper level and it is a game changer! The things that I am starting to see in those moments actually kick me out of my meditation because my brain and body overload with excitement at everything coming through. 

My mind wants to logically figure out what it all is and I find myself gently reminding myself that I need to relax and not try to figure it out. 

I am reminding myself that it’s like watching a movie. 

I know a lot of people watch movies trying to figure out the plot but I never have. 

I love to be surprised. I love to sit and let them tell me a story. I have been like that with books, tv, all of it – since I can remember. I love letting the story show me and unfold however it wants to. 

If I can be so open with everything else- why was it so hard to do that here? 

I started deep diving more into meditation because of Tom Campbells episode #2259 on JRE. Before I watched it I felt like I had all the puzzle pieces but I couldn’t figure out how to put them together. I had no idea what it was supposed to be and I didn’t really know where to start. I had been slowly putting pieces in piles that I thought went together. As I watched Tom’s episode all the pieces started to pull together. I could see the big picture. 

I am capable of extraordinary things. I don’t know why I held myself back for so long, but now that I truly know and believe this, everything changes. 

My life is wide open and the more that I learn and apply- the more open my life becomes. 

This is the moment that I have been searching for longer than I even realize. 

I used to feel like I had a hole in my chest and the more life I lived, the bigger that hole became. I felt like instead of getting closer, I was losing more of what I needed. 

Right now as I sit in gratitude reflecting on that feeling, I realize that I can’t remember the last time I felt like I was missing something. 

I feel more connected to my life than ever. I am where I used to beg to be. 

It is such a beautiful recognition.

It reminds me that I won’t quit this journey, and if I do- I know, it is only temporary. 

I never quit. 

I pause. 

And if I pause, I am learning and I will come back even better. 

That’s what my life has always been.

My perspective has shifted. 

I can see everything differently, self included. 

I have always been this person.

I don’t know why I am just now seeing it, but I trust that everything is right on time. I don’t need to know why right now. I just need to keep going. 

75 Hard is changing my life. 

It is pushing me through my discomfort in new ways and directing me to new resources.

It is showing my old system that the new system is actually really freaking awesome. 

It is aligning me in ways that I didn’t know were possible. 

I am so grateful that I have been leaning into the challenges. 

It is taking me places that I have dreamed and craved in my soul for longer than I even realize. 

My life truly is what I make of it. 

What I think, what my actions are – they weren’t what I thought they were. 

Now they are. 

I am aware. 

I am here. 

I am in it.

There is no limit.