Day 7

DAY 7 OF 75 HARD:

Mantra: “The only way to do great work is to love what you do!”

Writing all day yesterday, with my fingers feeling so free, reminded me how I fell in love with writing. 

I remember as a kid getting lost in writing. I never knew where my fingers were going to lead me. I would read the finished product out loud and I would be surprised at where it took me. I knew bits and pieces, but it always felt like I was hearing the story for the first time. 

I have always loved my ability to write so freely. Nothing is off limits. 

I lost that for a long time. 

Self doubt flooded my system. 

Life happened. 

As I grew up and especially when I became a mom,  it got also a lot harder to suppress the fears of the future. 

Life felt like it was always moving so fast, and I always felt behind. 

It also enhanced my fears because when I became a mom, I knew love differently. My ability to love so deeply made it so hard to balance the fear. I was terrified of anything bad happening. 

Knowing that you could lose them at any time – is a tough concept to grasp and when you already struggle with staying in the present moment- those fears have full access to come and run right over you. 

I spent a lot of life fearing things that I knew could happen, because life had caught me off guard so many times. 

My experiences solidified that my fears were real and that I should be prepared for them, but preparing for hypothetical situations was what was keeping me stuck. It was what kept my thoughts and my background looping those fears on repeat.  

If I wanted something different, I had to trust in my ability to get through anything. 

Instead of looking at what had happened “to me” I had to look at myself. 

How I rose to the challenges, how I made it out of the depths of despair, how I always found my way. 

When I kept my focus there- I could thrive instead of just surviving. 

That’s why I decided to take on this 75 hard challenge. 

I needed to do the hard things so that I could remember where I have been, all that I have accomplished. 

I am one fierce mama jama. 

I prioritize the daily habits that remind me that no matter how lost I was, no matter how bleak life seemed, I always found my way through. The sun always shines again. 

What I am – what I do- what I think- and what I believe all aligns me. 

Today I remember why I keep my focus here, and why I keep going. ❤